Christmas is behind us, and 2011 beckons. I am blessed by continuing to feel healthier and stronger. My CT scan, now done every three months, shows further shrinkage of the mass outside of my liver to less than 10% of its original size 17 months ago. It is nothing short of miraculous that after only two doses of a planned 9 doses have resulted in such a change.
My oncologists have supported my beginning to return to the emergency call schedule. I still work four days a week, and rest on Wednesdays. Unfortunately some of my colleagues at the hospital do not support my current limitations and are exerting enormous pressure to return to my previous workload. This has been a source of considerable stress and pain.
On a positive note, my family are all well. My oldest Pat, is in New York City studying and composing. He has a premiere of his suite for jazz trio and string quartet being performed in Toronto next week, after being recorded for an album. Steve is working towards medical school in the fall, and working at Dalhousie Med School. Dave is completing his third year on keyboard at McGill, played the Montreal Jazz Festival last summer, and may go to the Banff Centre with his ensemble East-West this spring.
The most important priority is to keep getting well. The cancer journey is not over, not until the mass is gone, and then for 10 years after that. Melanoma can recur in bizarre places and times. I continue to try to balance diet, exercise, rest, mental health and spritual health dimensions which I am convinced have played a role in my response to treatment. Regardless of pressures from the hospital and colleagues, I cannot forget this most important priority. I have had to discover that most colleagues are not friends, just co-workers. We are a commodity, and quickly forgotten and replaced. It is good to know this, to avoid deep disillusionment and disappointment.
My next CT will be in three months. It will be another milestone. Hopefully I will be even healthier, and still have a career in PEI.
Saturday, January 15, 2011
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Hi Ian
ReplyDeleteThe Lord bless you, and keep you;
The Lord make His face shine on you,
And be gracious to you;
The Lord lift up His countenance upon you,
And give you peace.
XO Sue